What would make any girl feel better? Old Navy, naturally.
So, I pick up a few cute things, grab Jake a new onesie, but am just kind of perusing; we're in no hurry. I have him strapped to my chest in the mei-tai, and I'm carrying my purse & reusable shopping bag (I'm so good to the Earth). We meander in and out of a few more stores, but just window shop.
It is July. There is no school. And, because of this fact, I am nearly swallowed whole by many a cackling herd of young, teenage girls. Where are they all going so quickly? I know Jake & I had all the time in the world today, but these girls all walk as if there is some shepherd boy guiding them to the watering hole, where all teens in the mall are to congregate (I totally just flashed on Mean Girls).
I remember this. I remember those feelings that 15 year old girls have and I don't envy them one bit. I don't envy the need to speed walk lest you seem unsure of yourself, ultimately leading to some sort of embarrassment (like, duh). I don't envy being unsure of what looks good on me, what styles *I* like. I don't envy the utter confusion you feel at that age as to what's going to happen to you in your life, where you're going to go, who you're going to become.
I remember, when I starting being aware of the things my mom did as an adult, I
Now that I'm here, it's not so bad. You have things you have to do, and you just do them. Do we love the car payment and student loan payment every month? Not so much, but it's all just part of it. Instead of looking at the student loan payment as nails on a chalkboard, I think how grateful I am that no one can take that degree from me. And, the car payment? It's not a leech to our bank account, it's safer transportation for me and baby boy, & Gary, when the Army says we can have him (& yes, I totally have my days where I'm definitely not "together"!!)! But, and sometimes it's still true today, looking at the big picture, all at once, can seem super daunting.
Nope, I don't envy those kids wondering how things will pan out. Even though Gary, Jake, & I may end up, just about, anywhere at least, now, I know whatever comes our way isn't going to be the scary crapstorm adolescence can suggest it to be!